It’s hard to see any hope for the world. It’s interesting to think of oneself as being crazy. They say that it’s one of those catch 22s, literally, you can’t be crazy and know you’re crazy. That’s my problem. It’s about knowledge. I’m a pretty good pragmatist so my vocabulary and library is pretty much based on the evidence I got from my own eyes and experience. I’m not an empty sack regurgitating what I’ve been told although, of course, I spent a great deal of my life understandard narcosis and it did not leave me a happy or a healthy man.
I think about this a lot. I think about trying to be fair ecologically for my life and all of the things I’ve been diligently and publicly doing for quite some time. I don’t know how long I have made it clear in almost all of my human interactions that all I really care about is ecology. And we can say that earlier, I certainly spent less time thinking about this or caring about this. But to me at least it’s warming when I read my back catalog to see that the logic was always there. We have to be ecologically conscious. It seems I was writing plays about corruption that almost all eventually led to problems of global warming.
The way I see it now, it is a battle of good versus evil. I could say good versus bad because it’s really genuinely understood that one side is doing really horrible things, reprehensible things, things that should not be done but are regularly done in the quest of profits. And it’s perfectly fine to go after profits because that is the absolute modern philosophy that all of the people work with now.
I could take the example of what it was like for me in Belarus before the Russians decided to reoccupy the territory. It was a society of people with a vested interest trying to take care of themselves as well as they could and then there was this black hand smacking them down. If a business showed any hope of success, the local business was crashed so a Russian business could take its place. No one would stop them and there were absolutely no ecological laws preventing overuse of resources or excessive pollution. They didn’t care how much garbage they made.
Because this is living in the modern world. And everybody wants to vote for it. Well it’s kind of shitty but it’s the best I have. It’s just a crappy little house really but I like to keep it up. When I have money, I fix things up. And I’m pretty proud that I can keep my car going. It’s pretty much all our money paying the mortgage and the insurance payment but we’re getting by. Let’s just hope we keep our health. But where do you get your food? What is your food? Why do you agree that certain things are your food? And exactly how much food do we sell to people who haven’t got a thought in their head except that they need something tasty and quick? What about all the people who don’t really care because it’s just a matter of calories per dollar? And what about people who just don’t know any better because no one ever told them anything about it?
To me this is all addiction. Eating modern food is an addiction. It’s easy and affordable which is lovely. Somebody did all the work for you and you just eat your pre-packaged food happily. I get it. It’s easy and simple and you don’t have to do any work yourself. The problem is all of the travel and all of the plastic and packaging and all of the pollution and all of the garbage for the landfill. And that it has no genuine nutritional value except as a drug and that it does nothing but numb your brain. And I know that’s all anybody wants is to be numb. I’m just saying it doesn’t have to be this way.
So there was an argument. Do we want pollution and money or do we want ecology and a civil society? I mean one side leads to happiness or at least efforts towards happiness and the other is to completely other direction. If you personally came to a fork in the road and the road to the right looked kind of calm and breezy and maybe even had some fruit trees along the way and the road to the left seem to be eating to a volcano spewing lava. I mean, I’m not talking about tourist thing and then running away. I mean which road do you choose for your life? No one would choose a sadistic path. No one would consciously choose this. The problem is, no one is making their own decisions because the brain control people are doing their jobs day and night.
It’s not a conspiracy theory. Maybe it used to be some unspoken thing that could be read in an illicit journal. But now everyone is holding their device in their hands at all time. The flow of information never stops. The flow of someone telling you what to think and what to feel never stops. The Trump people are winners. This is all that is important to any of them. We are not losers, we are winners. But what do they win? They lose everything. They are slugs voting for more salt. They give away their lives. They give away their lives for nothing.
Maybe it’s the conscious versus the unconscious. Maybe it’s the civil versus the obtuse. Maybe it’s intelligence versus the freedom one gets while high or drunk or at least free from obligation for some period of time. It’s adults against the children. Building better adults against perpetual children. Maybe it’s about a conscious individual voice versus genuinely allowing oneself to exist in a group. To completely give up ones conscious ability to make choices in favor of doing whatever the group tells you to do. Our last bit of humanity gone because we agreed to work for love and food. I will be a good dog. I will be obedient.
And all of those relationships that look like they were going to be good things as we went on down the road turned into something different. Even the students who I got to watch grow in their knowledge perhaps of more than English. Perhaps reading popular materials and talking about themes that normally wouldn’t make it into a school curriculum made for some serious thinking. But this was only during that last period of time when thinking about one’s life was something that one did. That was before the choice. I think at one time in history they called this the crusades. This was a very similar thing. Agree or die.
The compromised against the uncompromised.
So there was this election and it went a predictable way. More than half of the United States is too lazy to care about this too much. And they listen to Ms Harris and they don’t hear anything interesting. They hear that she might give them some money. They see that she’s a big smile and an easy laugh. They see that she wants to do something for women. But they don’t see anything real. They don’t see anything that means money or relief. They don’t see that prosecutor anymore. That image was taken away a long time ago along with the ticket to sit vice president.
So what did we vote for? We voted for pollution. We voted for devolution. We voted for stupidity. We voted to party. Actually, we voted for cocaine over marijuana. Or we voted for cocaine instead of anything else because that’s really what this is about. Donald Trump loves saying that he’s never touched alcohol but how many times has he said that nothing ever went up his nose? And we seem to think that this is a darn fine idea.
So here we go to the end. I think it would be nice if people would like to contribute stories and articles and slices of life and blogs about trying to be a better ecological and social person in the world. Utopian thinking is a fun escape but one can always adapt the concepts to modern situations. We can think of the time when we are better and smarter and have figured out how not to be cancerous to the planet. We can dream about such times and we can ask ourselves what sorts of things are those people doing. It’s an interesting way to reimagine the world or even one’s life. Maybe it would be an interesting thought to someone to know that they had the right to do this.
So, it would be nice if this voice can keep going for a while. I believe it is a voice that should be heard. Let’s hope that there is some life ahead for the Utopian! Let’s hope there is some life ahead for the planet Earth and all the people just trying to live here.
