My mom was a vicious psychotic. Did I say that nice enough? Are we close enough to mother’s day? You know, women can be criminals too. And often women can be criminals in very feminine ways. Manipulating other people to death. Smothering people to death. Controlling people to death. Women are great for working other people. It has something to do with taking care of children. It has something to do with feelings of ownership. It is perhaps a natural feeling that a mother would want to protect and defend her children. But mixed with a world mentality that includes pyramids of status, we now have ownership and ownership can be bloody.
I remember trying to have a dialogue with her about something. Hey Mom, can I talk to you about something? She was fat and she smoked. She didn’t have enough heart for anything. She was also trying to eat to calm herself down at the moment. God, she was a mess. Instead of asking me what was on my mind, she lost her shit. Leave me alone. You are not on my level. You will never be on my level. I think it was a request for me to shut up and that she had the right to tell me to shut up without my having a vote in the matter. She was higher than me. Perhaps we are supposed to respect our parents. I don’t know. Now, I understand that it was no longer a conversation worth having because she had no capacity to have it.
When I dream of Utopian societies, I never dream of pyramids. When I dream of Utopian worlds, I never have Utopian leaders. This is all we want. Look at American media? Superheroes to save us from supervillains. Super politicians to save us from the world. Unlimited power to people who should have it and the rest of us cannot worry about a thing. And divorced to have enough power and weapons to protect us from our enemies. We always have enemies who want our stuff. There are people above us on the pyramid who know what they are doing. They know what to do. They will protect us.
At issue is the genuine competence of said leadership. Their physical ability to actually speak to other people in a calm and rational manner, to answer questions and be accountable for their actions should be included in the job description. These days, mostly thanks to the Russians, we don’t bother with this anymore. If someone is a leader, they talk and we listen. Check out where I live sometime and you see what I mean. The big man sits center stage and speaks and the entire auditorium nods its head in agreement. Sometimes I have fantasies of someone standing up in the audience and asking a question. Wouldn’t that be something?
The issue with this is that it is completely dehumanizing. If I go to a local hospital, actually any hospital, about the only person who has an opinion might be a doctor or specifically a surgeon. They are the only ones who are allowed their own purview. Everyone else is on call to be of service. It usually this means that they don’t feel any sense of personal responsibility and so they can just do their job however they do it. And the results are really obvious.
Now, perhaps if you’re having an operation, you don’t really want five people all offering their opinions at the same time and you want everyone working as a team. If you play any team sport, you want everyone to be on the same page. Maybe this is why I like baseball so much. Everyone is responsible for their own little world. Yes, the guy on the mound controls the game but, the third baseman has to be a good third baseman and do their job well. Third base person.
But in my Utopian thinking, I see more of a horizontal line with a generic marker known as people. Yes, we can make a distinction between children and adult. And yes, there are people who are genuinely somewhat disturbed, either by natural occurrence or by mistakes of their own hand. Certainly there are people who are too crazy to be listened to. I personally count the current American potus amongst this list. I do not count him as a competent person and have no idea why people think he is. I think it has something to do with incompetence created by one’s own hand. Kind of like my mom, eating and smoking her way out of her anxieties to the point that she is a complete psychotic.
I am also of the opinion though that of all of the people who choose to inebriate themselves out of their competence, most people would not do this if they had full agency over their own lives. Literally, if everybody understood that they had their own position to cover, perhaps it would be that they would want to do a good job. Perhaps it would be that they would take pride in a job well done. It wasn’t because they were being ordered to or had no choice, because they take pride in their lives to be good people, this was why they had to do a good job. If this was the general consensus of society, we would have a much healthier place.
But amongst the things that would have to change to have this sort of situation, one of the most important things that would have to change is that we can’t have is punishment. The one thing we can’t have is people standing above us with the right to harm us. And absolutely uncertainly, this includes people with the right to punish us who also carry weapons.
I studied a little law. I read a few books. I learned the difference between a fool and a criminal. I don’t like criminals. I don’t like people who intentionally harm others. That is the definition of what a criminal is. When someone causes intentional harm on another, this is a criminal and we don’t need criminals. We need to remove criminals from our lives. A world without criminals is a utopian society.
But where are we now? It seems that you have to have the resources and, because of global overpopulation and the true impossibility of actually succeeding, it doesn’t matter what you do to get ahead. If you break a few rules, good for you. And if other people get hurt along your way, well, we’re all playing the same game right? I mean, it’s not a fair game or a level playing field but I guess you need to know that too. Go ahead and be a criminal. Ask Trump.
The history of the world is a games of thrones. It seems that the way to do it is to become a king and then find someone to make a war with. You go in and you plunder resources and this is how the world works. Fascism is the way, fascism is how it’s done. Just game ownership. Nobody really cares about your competence. And if you lose your throne, your people don’t really care because one fascist is as good as another. Well, some groups like to talk more than others and some groups really love controlling their people. We love controlling others so much.
Sometimes my friends get angry at me for using them in my writing. I try not to name names or be too specific and if you see something that looks like you, it probably is. Everyone I know is an influence on me in some way. I see the choices people make and I wonder why they make them. I often wish I could pull them aside and ask what they were thinking but I know this can’t happen. There is no conversation between people on different levels. This is the problem I have asking people their opinion.
The thing is, I am one of these crazy people who refuses to see levels as significant. What I mean by this is, if I’m asking about competence in handling situations that concern my life, I prefer to be my own ship’s captain. I don’t like other people telling me how to do my life. Sometimes people make suggestions or tell me how they do what they do and I learn from this. I spent a lot of time online looking at ship construction and a small space / tiny house living. I’m really interested in efficiency in design and I truly admire a person with enough bravery to jump on a ship and sail somewhere based on their own skills and knowledge. You have to be really competent or you’re just not going to make it.
And here is my problem. I’ve gone to doctors who are obviously not paying any attention to me. They are in the middle of their own discussion with their own people and I am just another face. They have their protocols. Or, and truly this is worse, I am seen as someone different or special. Because I’m not seen as a usual number, they are challenged in some way because they’re normal way of doing business might not apply. And, just like with my mom, if they are not healthy enough or have enough heart to put the brakes on and do some thinking, what are you going to get? Seriously, what are you going to get but additional problems from incompetence from an incompetent anybody? Or worse, outright brutality in retribution from someone who didn’t like being challenged.
I watched a fight last night. It was the second, a a non-championship fight, between Muhammad Ali and Joe Frazier. This was kind of old school. Both boxers come out dancing and shaking. They were not actually fighting each other. They were dancing. They were appearing to be fighting. But then I think of Mike Tyson. What did he do different? He went straight after the other fighter. He didn’t want to look like anything. The man had a job to do. He was more like a carpenter putting up a frame. He was going to whack a few nails into place and he was going to straighten this thing out once and for all. And for pretty much everybody he fought at the beginning part of his career, he did lay out everybody straight enough. He was the most feared man on the planet for a while.
My Utopian horizontal thinking means that I’m a person amongst people. Okay, everybody has their skill set and we can be honest about that. Hey, can you help me do the wiring in my house? Me? Probably not. I can take a look at it and maybe I know something and can help a little but I will never say that I am an expert in electrical work. I never studied it and except for very basic stuff, I would never consider myself competent. I couldn’t wire a house through the studs. I could study if it, were important to me for a particular project. And maybe if I was younger, I would think it was vitally important to learn this. But I didn’t learn electrical when I was younger and so I always ask my electrical friends for electrical help. I think that’s a fair enough assessment of my life.
But we all can be as good as we can be at whatever it is that we do. If you know someone who has the ability to prepare particularly delicious food, this is a skill. If you know someone who has the ability to manipulate resources with their hands, I think this is a thing of beauty to be admired. High level musicians? People who are exceptional builders? God, I love people with good skills. I go crazy looking at people who are genius in their fields. Read really amazing authors sometime and be transported.
But on the contrary, I have no tolerance or time for people who consider it their job to manage other people. I hate managers. I hate managers and I hate blackmailing bureaucrats. I hate people who believe they have power to manipulate other people. I hate women who try to play with my emotions through their femininity. I hate men who bully me or influence me towards having to defend myself. I hate anyone who tries to put their fingers on me because they are specifically looking at me instead of taking care of their own business. I simply hate people whose job it is to manage others and especially I hate people who try to manage me. Manage yourself.
So, if we’re talking about Utopian societies with all things being equal, I think I usually believe that the world is about growing our own food. Wherever we live, whatever sort of setting we have to work with, if everybody takes a hand in growing their own food at the beginning of the day, we have a line of equality that makes perfect sense. We also have something that everyone can learn and practice deeply everyday. The patience of working with slow growing things. And yes, I am talking about plant-based eating, which, if you wish a healthy life, is a remarkably good thing to establish right from the beginning. Vegan life is clarity. Vegan life is without unnecessarily being upset. And mostly, vegan life is not about waiting for meat which means we don’t really stare at each other. Vegan life means you worry about yourself.
Unfortunately, people who live the pyramid life do not really understand what I’m saying. They look at me as if I am them. And because of this, the way I act seems so arrogant and I must certainly see myself his higher than everyone else. This is exactly the opposite. I don’t see myself as higher than anybody and I certainly don’t see myself as being lower than anybody except in terms of skills in particular regions. I think it’s mostly a matter of respect. I have to ask people do some things for me these days because I need help. I can’t do a lot of things independently anymore and I require other people to help me out. Sorry, it happened and here I am. I’m trying to do something about it and I do the best I can everyday. I’m trying to remain as independent as I possibly can but sometimes you just need some help. But I’m not arrogant, I’m just the same. I’m just another person. I’m not above you and I’m not below you. I’m just worried about my own gig and I’m not really staring at you or yours.
If this comes off as meaning I don’t care, this is not true. If someone wants to tell me about their life and ask me my opinion, I will listen to what they have to say and based on whatever information they give me, I’ll say what I think. Or, if I definitely see someone acting incompetently and creating problems, I think it’s a good idea for me to step forward and say hey, you are fucking up. Don’t do this anymore. You’re hurting people with your incompetence so please stop doing what you’re doing. Or worse, when we have arrogant profiteers who don’t care who dies as long as they get their money, please, let me vote loud and long. Evict these people and stop whatever process has allowed them the power to move without anyone’s ability to stop them.
Utopia. A land where no one has a weapon and can come into your house and use it on you. A land or no one has the right to tell you what to do. I’m not a soldier. Well, I have sometimes a soldier’s discipline to duty. I have sometimes a soldiers ability to physically act or protect myself or stop someone from causing harm to me or someone else. I did have quite a few scrapes when I was younger. But most of these things were not really me walking around being a hero but people approaching me because they thought I was arrogant. I wasn’t and I’m not arrogant. I just don’t dwell on a pyramid. I dwell in my own existence and I worry about my own life and I make my own contracts and that’s all. I worry about me and my life and I try to keep people who are good close and bad at a safe distance. I don’t like being touched by people with harmful intent. Actually, I don’t like being touched generally by anyone without invitation.
This happens a lot these days. People are not healthy. We don’t have a culture of health. Americans might say that everyone should go to the gym and to be a good American means to have a good looking body. I don’t care what your body looks like. I’m not Hollywood. I don’t care about anyone’s lips or the size of their forehead. I don’t care about any of these things. And I really don’t care what clothes anyone wears unless you’re hanging around in a tight group and in this case, you would help if you didn’t stink like shit or anything like that. But other than hanging around in groups and being reasonably clean, I think everyone should have the right to leave their own life. I also think everyone should have the right to enough resources to a basic existence without having to fight for it. And I definitely believe we should live in a world where we don’t have to fight for the right for clean air, food, shelter, basic medicine and education.
We have to fight if we live on pyramids and right now, if you’ve noticed in the news, an ecological protester is pretty much lower than the shit you want to scrape off the bottom of your shoe. If someone has taken the trouble to earn the money to afford a car and some clown is standing in the road asking them to stop driving and stop spreading the pollution, we have had people stand up and draw guns. And the drivers lose their shit. You are not on my level. You cannot talk to me and you are blocking my road. No heart for the conversation. No health for alternative view. We’re got to make our money, I got my car, get your sad poor eco activist ass out of my way or I’m going to drag you across the road or just run you over. And they do. Quite a few people begging for clean air get killed every year just for speaking up and voting no.
I’m one of these people. So stupid. Why don’t I know my place? Why don’t I know when to close my mouth? It’s for the same reason I prefer not to be around really stinky people. Cars are stinky as hell. Cars are filthy. Guns are filthy. Cars and guns and airplanes are filthy. You don’t want to be in a society with filthy things that stink up the place. There is no difference between someone who would be seen as homeless and therefore below our societal expectations and the actual contraption we use to go from place to place. It’s filth. It’s pollution. It’s bad for us. At least drive an electric car, dumbass. At least build the goddamn infrastructure already. At least invest in a clean world while you’re busy acquiring enough money for power, hookers and cocaine.
I am not an oligarch. I don’t supply lifetime contracts for workers. I hire usually one offs. Can you help me? Can I pay for time and materials? I like to stay completely even with people. I don’t like owing anybody any money and I don’t want anybody owing me any money. If I actually give someone some money for a job, sometimes I overpay and it makes people uncomfortable. But then if I try to pay less, they get upset. What do you want from my life? I just like staying even. I don’t want anyone in debt to me and I don’t want to be in debt to anyone. Neither higher nor lower. You take care of your life and I’ll take care of mine. You do you and I’ll do me. And if I can genuinely help you with something because something in my skill set is appropriate, I try to keep enough heart to listen to people when they talk to me. Other than that, I don’t really care what other people do unless I see obviously that they are causing harm to others in their actions. And I really get angry when people start harming me in my life for whatever reason and especially when it’s done intentionally.
Unfortunately, and people here don’t understand this, but there is no longer any place that I know of in the world where I can just do me. The answer is not that this place is inappropriate It’s that the whole world has become inappropriate for individuality. People tell me I can’t be independent in this place because it’s just not the way it’s done but they don’t understand that there’s no difference anywhere else. And if I am here, there’s a real reason for it. A long time ago in a world that is being removed from people’s memories everyday actively, there was a time when everybody had to respect everyone else as individuals and everyone knew that everyone had to pull their weight for the group to be successful. To have a good winning baseball team, you need good people at every position holding down their jobs. There was a time here when people were very good to each other. Very helpful, very forgiving and very kind. That was a long time ago and we are the exact opposite now.
I had a bad day and I treated people badly. I was in a lot of pain and I bothered some people who didn’t really want to be bothered. It went around like lightning. I am the toast of the town. Lately, I am so popular with people they just can’t stop staring at me. I am hot hot hot. When I released my catalog, I elevated from fool to genius in about 3 seconds. But of course this also brought out the leeches and the haters. I’ve done this a million times in my life but usually it’s just to get the attention of a girl I want to hang out with. But now, in addition from some new respect from some decent people I know, I also have all of these hate people looking to put their fingers on me. One troll after another looking for some fresh meat. I can’t stand it. I can’t stand living in this world. I can’t stand having people trying to put their fingers on me. I can’t stand having people stare at me. I hate being a celebrity. I hate being a scapegoat. I hate being a target. I’m just a good writer who’s pretty clear in what he writes. I make clear pictures and people understand my meaning easily. It’s part of my skill set. I’m probably a good guy to ask for some advice. No one, no one uses me for my intelligence. Ever.
So no, I didn’t go play for the other team. I chose free agency because my original contract wasn’t worth shit to me and no one has ever offered me anything better than hate and punishments for having left. But keep this in mind: I’m still in the same league. We’re all supposed to be in the same league, get it? It’s supposed to be a friendly competition about living good lives and not a life and death quest to dig up every resource on the planet all for ourselves. That’s the degeneracy problem I was talking about. That’s the problem we have had absolutely enough of.
And believe me, I don’t get shit from the Russians except for hate and punishment here as well. There ain’t nowhere to go so don’t think there is.
So I do get followed around by power people who tell people what to think and do. I do get followed around and I do find that friends suddenly become nervous around me because someone has told them that being my friend is about to cause them problems. It ended my relationship with my daughter. It ended many relationships that were kind of nice because I was with people who had pretty cool skill sets. But now they are just too nervous to be around me. Someone told them I was dangerous. I am after all the most dangerous man in the world according to the people who love talking in other people’s ears. I am the most dangerous man in the world as far as you are concerned because that’s what you are told to think. And most people are told never to listen to me under any circumstances. It’s too dangerous.
I’m against the oil business. I think it’s filthy and I think it’s broken the planet and all of its natural cycles with the pollution that comes along with it. I don’t care about their profits and this makes me a problem and an enemy. And yes, they do have money enough for lifetime contracts and they use them and create people just like them to make sure that no one stops the machine.
Well, listen to me now. Cars are filthy. Ride a bicycle. Live small, not big. Don’t try to acquire a bunch of expensive things. Stay humble. Just take what you need. Limit your resources and live well in the world. And for God’s sake, learn to grow some food. Learn to feed yourself and try leaving the animals alone? I mean, meat? Really? Do you really think there is such a great difference between a chicken and a human as far as what meat is? Do you really think there’s a difference between killing a chicken and killing a human and eating its flesh? Do you really think you would know the difference if you were eating a meat dish that came from people? Do you really think there’s a difference except in pyramid life?
I’m bad for the economy. Fuck the economy. Listen to me, we all have to live together which means if we’re going to stand in a group, you have to take a shower. Or at least clean yourself up with a rag and a bucket. And this means generally in your life. Stop trying to impress other people with your wealth. Stop trying to impress other people generally. Stop asking other people to take care of you. Stop proving your worth to things you can’t see. We all have to figure out how to stop polluting the world for ourselves. We all have to become ecologists. We have to stop saying that we’re more important than anything else. We have to step off the pyramid. We all have to get off the pyramids and we definitely have to stop listening to people 10,000 miles away from or books written thousands of years ago us telling us how to live. And I’m not the slight bit sorry for saying this but the Roman Empire has to die already. We have to stop influencing people by force or thread of death to get them into a belief system. Believe this or die means no right of agency for one’s own thoughts. We have to let the slaves go free once and for all.
Everyone on the planet currently lives in a world where people agree that they just really can’t understand what we’re looking at. We have been taught that an absolute conclusion is simply impossible and that’s all anyone needs to know. It’s always confusing and this is our excuse for not having to pay attention. Whoever has built this culture should be burning in hell right now and should stay there forever. We have to let the slaves go free because the only way for this world to survive is for everyone to get on the same page and to start pulling their own weight. We have to kill the false economy. We have to kill this culture of acquiring money at all costs. We have to kill criminal culture once and for all. We must live sustainably and no one else is going to save us from the damage we’ve already caused by doing otherwise.
Global warming is caused by human degeneracy. Human degeneracy is caused by people who don’t care about their lives and wish to escape the misery of being low on the pyramid. If you’d like to stop global warming, stop demanding that only making money is the proper way to live. It’s time to allow people to live simpler lives with wider and more diverse activities. Simpler lives are sustainable. What we’re doing right now has basically killed the planet. Keep that in mind as good advice from someone you should have been listening to for a long time now.
